Multi-platinum-selling soul artist Macy Gray on bipolar, love and breasts.
Doctors are flawed, just like the rest of us. They throw a lot of things around and lot of times, they don’t know what they’re talking about. I did the whole med thing for a little while, but one day I woke up and I just didn’t want to do it anymore. And I’ve been kinda okay. I have my ups and downs. But in general, I’ve just learned to live with it. It’s really become such a throwaround term. People go to the doctor and they say, “Oh, bipolar.” I had a bad day; it must be bipolar. It’s gotten a little commercialised. It’s almost cool now. So I don’t really like to claim it.
It’s just part of your chemistry and your makeup. You hear all those stories about tragic lives of musicians and comics and actors. People overdosing and stuff. I don’t know if that has to do with mental illness as much as it’s just life, you know? Life happens to people. And it’s not always something you need a pill for. I’m really wary of throwing [the term] “mental illness” around. Because it’s very serious and very debilitating to people who really have it. You don’t want to say, “Oh, him. Something must be wrong with him.” When really, he’s just off the hook. He just parties too much or something.
I definitely have God in my heart, for sure. I also have three kids who I would never give up on. And I love what I do. I have things in my life that I adore. So I think that’s the balance. ’Cos you’re never gonna get the perfect ride. But if you have some kind of balance, if you have a couple of things that are going great, then you’ll be okay.
I’m not sure if I’m in love. I have someone who I really like and who’s very dear to me, but I don’t know if it’s at that point. It’s not early days. It’s just … I don’t know. Maybe. ’Cos I thought I was in love before and I wasn’t. That’s what happens to you when you get older. You start questioning shit like that. Like, ten years ago, I would’ve said, “Oh, yes. I’m over the moon, I’m gonna get married, I’m gonna have eight of his babies.” But now I’m like, “We’ll see.”
I’ve just learned that if you really love someone, it’ll last forever. No matter what somebody says to you or how long you don’t talk or how bad it ends. If you really love ’em, then that’s never gonna go away. And if goes away, then you probably were just infatuated or having a really good time or really good sex. But if you really love someone, then you never get that out of your system fully.
Best thing about being a woman is probably your tits. Tits are so awesome. I just have a thing for tits. They’re such a weird thing to have on your chest. It’s kind of like a guy’s penis. That’s the weirdest thing to put between your legs. Like, what is that? I mean, it’s just amazing what God came up with. I think tits are just wild. Like, wow. You see those heavier set women and they have these huge tits and they’re like really soft. You just want to lay on ’em.